@dagmarpiano said:
In my 20s I was obsessed with artistic purity, against anything. I had a great time, met some interesting people, got a big record deal which I frittered away by upsetting everyone who had any power just for my own amusement.
Aged about 33, after a life of poverty, I decided for an experiment to see what would happen if I channeled my energy into making money from music instead seeking artistic nirvana.
Some important things happened:
1. I made money for the first time in my life, more than I ever expected to make (I had small ambitions, so I don't mean millions, I just mean I never expected to have the kind of money I have now; a real living, a nice house).
2. I did music which I found more interesting to make, which took a more open mind, which took more listening, learning and thinking than I ever did before.
3. I did music at a higher level of technical excellence.
4. When I did side projects for old times' sake, for the artistic fun of it, they were better on every level than the stuff I did when I thought I was a tortured artist, because I'd matured and developed while under commercial pressures.
So, in fact during my tortured artist years really I just had ambitions beyond my own ability. I got very closed minded about what I thought was good, I stopped listening to anyone except myself and I got stuck in a rut. I also ended up depressed and lost my enthusiasm for music. Ok, I also had some fun and I did make some important leaps of imagination, but I think I progressed further artistically when I stopped trying to be artistic and instead focused on money and the market. It made me work harder, I became happier, I listened more and developed an open mind.
So Tarkovsky's statement is fine for him and his life, but it's not my experience.
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Don, I really appreciate the honesty of your sharing. Most refreshing. I had a lot of experiences on the radio/ad agency side of the fence before I went back to writing. I call this period in my 20s, "the other side of the music business," because at that level you see how it all works. I took a lot of that information and created a course called Marketing Your Music and You. It's the slowest selling thing at Alexander Publishing.
There's always this battle between art and bucks. I think in music we need to understand the reality that NASA has had to work with: no bucks, no Buck Rogers. If only we could bring back Leopold Mozart and get his opinion on all this!