William,
that´s why we agreed so much on the crap script things... [:D]
More honest, I think I exactly understand your position. It´s exactly this problem which let me quit my musical career five years ago and let me go into the sound editing / sound designing business. I had lots of fun there and had a great living (fortunatly I got hired for good films). BUT.... it was not music.
This "BUT" stuck in the back of my neck and never let me feel really happy with my job. I needed to become thirty to finally quit it and return to music.
I decided now that I want to make my living from creating music, which of course means that I will also be dependent on crap movies.
There are some philosophic points which allow me to do this:
First, I don´t regard music that much anymore as a means of personal expression. That´s the most crucial one. I discovered that a lot of music is just fooling me, it seems to be very personal but it´s just great skills.
I left the romantic idea of plunging into myself and am now more interested in the baroque idea of generating emotional states. When something in my music is moving you it´s not my personal emotion, it´s some music which is moving you and me. I´m not writing music which comes out of me, I´m writing music which moves me. That´s a difference.
Second, I started to enjoy industrial processes. Creativity as an industrial process. Actually that also freed my mind.
Third, if I´m doing music for a film, it´s not my film. That I really had to learn in the beginning of my sound editing career. I was of course very motivated and had lots of original ideas which were rejected. Somehow I learned to accept that it´s not my film. My job is to propose original ideas but if they are rejected I don´t feel insulted anymore.
Fourth, I discovered that it´s not healthy for my own artistic work, which is not related to commissions, to work in a non-musical job. I experienced that I have to deal with musical material all the time to keep my musical mind working. Even when I´m dealing with a boring naive musical statement for a commercial it might bring me an idea for an artistic piece.
That´s my current state of thinking. I didn´t start yet to proof these ideas, since I have to get into business first, but they make me confident.
Best regards,
- Mathis
that´s why we agreed so much on the crap script things... [:D]
More honest, I think I exactly understand your position. It´s exactly this problem which let me quit my musical career five years ago and let me go into the sound editing / sound designing business. I had lots of fun there and had a great living (fortunatly I got hired for good films). BUT.... it was not music.
This "BUT" stuck in the back of my neck and never let me feel really happy with my job. I needed to become thirty to finally quit it and return to music.
I decided now that I want to make my living from creating music, which of course means that I will also be dependent on crap movies.
There are some philosophic points which allow me to do this:
First, I don´t regard music that much anymore as a means of personal expression. That´s the most crucial one. I discovered that a lot of music is just fooling me, it seems to be very personal but it´s just great skills.
I left the romantic idea of plunging into myself and am now more interested in the baroque idea of generating emotional states. When something in my music is moving you it´s not my personal emotion, it´s some music which is moving you and me. I´m not writing music which comes out of me, I´m writing music which moves me. That´s a difference.
Second, I started to enjoy industrial processes. Creativity as an industrial process. Actually that also freed my mind.
Third, if I´m doing music for a film, it´s not my film. That I really had to learn in the beginning of my sound editing career. I was of course very motivated and had lots of original ideas which were rejected. Somehow I learned to accept that it´s not my film. My job is to propose original ideas but if they are rejected I don´t feel insulted anymore.
Fourth, I discovered that it´s not healthy for my own artistic work, which is not related to commissions, to work in a non-musical job. I experienced that I have to deal with musical material all the time to keep my musical mind working. Even when I´m dealing with a boring naive musical statement for a commercial it might bring me an idea for an artistic piece.
That´s my current state of thinking. I didn´t start yet to proof these ideas, since I have to get into business first, but they make me confident.
Best regards,
- Mathis